Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Relief

Today was a day of relief on a few different levels. Of course last night was really when I let out the sigh I had been holding in all day, waiting and hoping to see what I did. There is so much going wrong in this world, in this country, at this point in time that it is enormously relieving to see such a big right take the stage. I think both Obama and McCain, in their acceptance and concession speeches respectively, were very gracious. The only point I ever truly found to fault McCain on was his choice of Palin, so watching his well worded acceptance of defeat was bittersweet. And I couldn't have asked for Obama to have said it better than he did, in promising to not be the champion of only his supporters- but to be President and defender to us all. BL pointed out to me that Bush, in his acceptance, said quite the opposite. A little bit of unity will be nice.

On a more personal level, today brought relief in the end of several days of worry. I started getting some brown spotting on Monday, following a very strenuous weekend. This NEVER happened with my pregnancy with the MR. I know what everyone tells you, that brown is nothing to worry about as long as it stays brown and no other symptoms show up. But being pregnant and having anything unexpected show up down there is scary. I immediately went into lock down mode, ceasing anything but necessary physical movement. I freaked out. I called the doctor and spoke to the advice nurse, who assured me with all the words I knew she would. What she did offer me that gave me a chance to truly feel better was an appointment for an ultrasound today. I went in this morning, BL and the mister in tow, hovering between fear and anxiety. Thank god we saw this:


Our teeny tiny little bean baby, and their itty bitty heart beating away. The technician did both an external and a transvaginal ultrasound, and it was with the internal exam that she found the little heartbeat for us. I was starting to become more worried when the tech began to explain to me that it might be too early to even see a heartbeat, the one thing I really needed to see. Fortunately that wasn't the case. We saw it, beating away at a happy 109. What she also found in there was the cause of my spotting. Apparently I suffered a small (maybe 3/4 of a cm) subchorionic hemorrhage, likely from all the extra activity over the weekend. It was a huge relief to have an actual answer, and visual proof to boot. The spotting is still unsettling, but it remains brown and it should temper down within a week or so. One other finding from the ultrasound, they adjusted my projected due date from June 20th to July 1st, as I am looking closer to six weeks as opposed to seven at this point. BL's birthday is on the 6th, and doesn't seem keen to share, so we shall see how that plays out.

And now, for the relief of sleep.

7 comments:

jessica @pianomomsicle said...

Oh, i'm so glad that your baby is ok!
It's weird: the exact same thing happened to me. i wrote about it http://preggersicle.blogspot.com/2008/02/tiny-worry.html and then at http://preggersicle.blogspot.com/2008/02/ultrasound-results.html
Sorry i don't know how to embed links. Anyway, i'm super glad for you! You don't need any more worry with all you have going on right now!

Ann(ie) said...

WHAT a relief GIRL. thank god. Iwould do the same. We are due in the same timeframe!!! I think I'm due around the 28th. It'll be nice to compare notes. xo. So glad all is okay!!!

(AND YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY OBAMA!!!!)

Pregnantly Plump said...

I'm so glad that you and the baby are ok. And that's great that your OB's office scheduled an ultrasound to help ease the anxiety.
I was also on pins and needles Tuesday night. No matter how many assurances I had from Bob, I couldn't stop worrying until about 9:30 when the race seemed locked up. And I agre that the speeches were both very good.

Unkempt Mommy said...

I don't think I have said Congrats yet - CONGRATULATIONS!!!! How awesome! I'm glad the spotting was nothing and you were able to take a deep sigh of relief!

Soupy said...

Thank God all is ok with your little beanie baby! TOo weird that we both are spotting this PG and we BOTH have little blood clots- weird weird weird.
Take it easy (easier said than done, I know!) and yay for a healthy heartbeat!

kristine said...

I can't imagine but I am so glad you are ok. BTW- little bean baby is super cute already , I can just tell! ;-)

Kristi said...

Whew! I'm glad everything was okay. And congrats on a great ultrasound!