So much

I have had a lot on my mind lately. I mentioned a while ago that BL got a new job, which is still a yay! but along with it has come a whole new notion of normal for our household. He just started this past Monday and we are on a new schedule, one that means changes for all of us. The changes for me aren't so bad, I do my showering at night now to avoid bathroom jams and running late in the morning. The differences that weigh most heavily on me are the one's for my little boy. He had his first day in daycare today, *sigh*. It's a great place, and I do have faith in their ability to take good care of him... but still it breaks my heart. He got to spend his first year home with me, and then almost his whole second year home with his Daddy. It was a great experience for all of us. Both BL and I had an opportunity to strengthen our connection with our son and enjoy the highs (and lows) of being a stay at home parent. This next step, being under the care of someone new, it's not a bad thing all in all. He will make new friends, which he loves other children, and he will experience new activities and engage in new experiences. I keep telling myself all the ups, but I still feel down. It will get better, right?